It is 4:00 a.m. and I reach for the paper and pen beside my bed, as I often do. The sun has yet to rise.  I lie in bed and close my eyes. I am listening to my soul and allow the pen to flow on the pages.  I reflect on this year as it comes to an end. The awareness of the blessings of my choices comes to light. I embraced the gifts my experiences gave me. I chose to trust, be open, free, loving, passionate, and forgiving.  I rose above adversity comprehending the atonement more deeply through my soul. I discovered parts of me longing to be expressed. I was willing to look beyond others weaknesses and consciously choose to remember and focus on their strengths.

 I had the courage to move my family into a new space.  I supported my daughter and held her in my love while she learned to be on her own. I watched the miracles of the universe support her on her path. I had the courage to believe in myself and start a new business.  I was patient and allowed spirit to guide me on a new path to share my spiritual gifts.  I offered those that came into my path my heart and hand in love. Above all, I choose to love abundantly and received love abundantly. I witnessed the ripple effect on humanity in being the love that I am. I continue to be fearless, pushing through my own resistance and limitations. I look within and see how I grew in compassion, understanding, forgiveness, and love.

I embraced the moments of healing that came from nature. The earth is my teacher and calls me to remember my connection to all life. I would often feel the breath of God through the wind kissing my face, allowing me to breathe more deeply, and bringing surrender to the spirit of life. Nature calls me inward to feel and listen to the essence of the elements. My heart awakens to the wisdom of knowing I am both the giver and receiver of life. As I remember my connection to Mother Earth I stand in my own light and truth. I feel a space unknown but familiar to my soul.

 As I reflect on my experiences that have brought me to this moment in time, I feel peace. I am in awe of God’s grace and tender mercies as his love flows through my life as beams of light illuminating my path. Forever hearing the voice of God whisper from my soul to trust him, holding me closely to feel him, and to know him more deeply to find myself once again through his love. I walk with humility with my Savior holding my hand, showing me his wonders, mysteries, and love.

I remember what is sacred within me, which can never be taken, only held in endless light. My awareness grows in knowing my life is sacred and holy with each step I take on earth.   I feel how my love branches out through my children nurturing them to grow through the seasons. I am the guiding light with open arms of love, to honor the sacred and holy journey of my children. Today in this moment of reflection I see all that is one eternal realm of love. I am here. I am love. I am truth. I am light. I am peace. I expand from here, in beauty and grace divine. The sun has risen again and I am awake to embrace what comes.

Johnna Andrea Tuttle